And let the packing begin...

It has officially started!  And is becoming even more and more real but yet I still can't believe it will be happening in just 17 days!  God is soo good and I am in love with HIM!  My heart is leaping out of my chest with the anticipation of the love story God continues to write every day! HE is amazing and I love giving HIM the reins to run my life how HE wants!  I can't help but become giddy when asked how soon I leave and if I am ready yet... I don't think I will ever be fully "ready" but the Lord doesn't call the equipped He equips the called.  And these past months of waiting have taught me patience and allowed me to fall deeper and deeper in love with HIM to the point of finding pure satisfaction in who I am in HIM.

The peace in my heart is simply overflowing and I want to shout at the top of my lungs for all the world to hear that in HIM I am enough I am just who HE made me to be!  And by simply offering my life to HIM as HIS to write the story I will follow where ever HE leads me... Even though the world may see it as being a little off my rocker I will follow and join HIM in the magnificent work HE has already begun.

I look forward to just simply following HIM and have learned from previous experiences the joy and indescribable sense of awe at my Father who loves me.  I have cried tears of joy witnessing others come to know HIM for the first time and knowing I will see them again in heaven someday but now I want as many people to know HIM so that they too may be filled with the peace and joy that comes from following HIM.  I look forward to stepping back from the business of life to allow my life to be pure worship to HIM.

"When I meet God I want to face HIM completely out of breath from having chased HIM these few days I have on earth." - Jennie Allen  This is how I want to live the rest of my days on earth even when I have my doubts or grow weary I will chase HIS will for my life.  But those who wait for Yahweh shall renew their strength. They shall go up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not grow weary; they shall walk and not be faint. (Isaiah 40:31) 

A few words that I wake up each morning and have written on my mirror so every morning I can remind myself how I will live each day

"Let's live like God is real and heaven is coming."

Overwelmed

Tomorrow marks the 31 day mark until my 3 month adventure begins.  God is already preparing me to go.  I have a wonderful peace about leaving - yes there is sadness of everything I will miss here at home but my heart is full of anxious anticipation for what He has planned for me.  I try not to dwell on what all needs to be packed, cleaned, and finished up before I leave.

I know God is in control of my life and it is so much more relaxing to start the day handing Him the reigns for the day... and trust me it is an everyday battle some days!  It can be hour to hour, minute to minute, and yes even second to second.

I am blessed to have a wonderful support system that has been with me every step of the way so far.  God simply blows me away and makes me giggle because of how wonderful He is which adds to my excitement growing in my stomach everyday.  Especially in the Christmas season when we celebrate His son Jesus.  I am not yet a parent but someday I will know what it is like to have a son or daughter and maybe just maybe understand what God did for me.

It overwelms me to have someone as powerful and mighty love me sooo much even when I keep making the same mistakes over and over again.  It truly humbles me to be His servant and brings me to my knees often.  I struggle almost everyday to be the better person but I am human and often fail but I know He is the romancer of my heart and I am learning to let Him love me mistakes, flaws, and all.

HE is enough.

HE has bridged the gap.

And the best part is - IT'S FREE- and no matter how good I am I will never be good enough but HIS grace is sufficient for me.

Father,
I love you.  I worship you and adore you.  In this season never let me forget how beautiful the gift of your son Jesus is to me.  I am your servant and my life is your's to use as you like.  Not my will but your's be done.  Make me live for you. Take me out of my box.  Make me uncomfortable.  You Father, know me better than I know myself.  Protect me and everyone I come in contact with today tomorrow and everyday after.  I love you for you are beautiful Father.  Keep me humble and open to your nudgings for I long to be faithful to you and not my own will.  I love you Father.  am